Happy 2nd Anniversary!

Day by day, i learn to love you more and more. And on 18th June 2014, we've loved each other for two years ! :D

Happy Anniversary, babe (: I know it's been hard along the road, but we still made it through and now, two years together :D I prolly will never find anyone who can cope with me this long, except for my parents' of course. 

I am very grateful that you came into my Life. You set everything straight for me, and my life isn't such a mess anymore. I can't thank you enough for what you've done in this two years for me. Thank you for all the joy and happiness you brought into my life. I appreciate you, i appreciate all you've done for me, i appreciate all you gave me. 

"I love you" is only three words that anyone can say but not do. But you able to cope with me so long and still love me, you already did more than what the three words meant (: "I love you" is just words without actions. I will do all i can, to keep you happy and smiling (:

"All the words in the world could not even begin to describe how deeply i am i love with you, from the first moment i saw you until the never ending heartbeat you have given to me. You are not only my Love, but my Soul" - Emily Winters (:

A very special gift you have given to me on this Anniversary! It was something least expected because i know how much you hate doing arts and craft. But to tell you honestly, for a girl who hate arts and craft, you did this nicely and the outcome is beautiful as you :D Thank you so much for this gift (: I love it!

I don't have pictures for all the gifts, but i hope you like the gift i got for you. May not be much but it's with love! That's for sure (:

Visited Victoria Station for dinner on that day. The Fresh Baked Scallop never let us down, still as delicious as the first time we tried few months back. I hope you enjoyed dinner as much as i did. I would brought you to some other place if i had more time. Sorry for this time ):

Then dessert at Mad About Coco. I got to say, it tasted as good as it looks, but don't judge by my pictures though, I'm not a very good photographer. We were both full at that time, so we just ordered one dessert and shared.

But at the end of the day, it wasn't about the gifts and meals that we're smiling about in these pictures. It's about the love that grows everyday, even after two years between us (: It was about the time spent with each other, happy and sad moments. Sure it wasn't easy along the way and yes, we do quarrel a lot, even about the most ridiculous things, but good things don't come easy as easy come easy go.

I rather take the time to go through the arguments and understand you better. Nothing is perfect and not all relationships are fairy tales. I may not be your Prince Charming, riding on a grand horse, picking you up from the woods. But i am the only guy that you need :D

So, ask me why am i always smiling? Why am i always happy? Why do i always seem stress-free?

It's because I already have my dream with me, which is you and your existence. I love you! 

Happy 2nd Year Anniversary, my baby girl :* More years to come (:

Bonfire Heart ~

Almost forgot the existence of this blog. But anyway, this post is to show that i will post a post when there something worth posting about (:

But again, since i'm here. Just want to update the future me about how am i doing currently, in the year 2014!

Currently in Semester 3 of my degree studies. Passed the previous finals, not with flying colors tho but i couldn't ask for more. Overall, life has been like a roller coaster, filled with ups and downs.

Whether in studies, or love, or friends, or personal stuff, there's always an optimum level where things could not get any better at the point. Then, we could just expect it to life to decline where the worst happens, and then, hopefully life will hit the optimum level again soon. So yeah, ups and downs.

I guess that's about it for now.

One.

Sometimes, we can't escape being lonely. No matter how much we hate it, there will be times that we all have to be alone. As for me, i hate nothing more than being alone, to be honest. But that doesn't mean i want you to only help me go through my lonely days. I mean nothing like that.

I want you is because i need you. I need you is because i can't live without you. I can't live without you is because you're my everything. You're my everything because I love you. I love you because You're the One.

But as much as i know you, you'll think that i'm just sugar-coating words to make you happy and seems fake. Well, it's not true. I meant each word that I've said. I don't choose to make the words sound so cheesy but blame English. English made the words sound like what they are. But then again, actions speak louder than words as they say. Maybe i didn't show as much as i say. Nah, not maybe, it's definitely. Perhaps, i'm still not good at expressing myself which makes it hard for me to do what i mean but i will do whatever i can to change things.

I know I've been always asking for more time to change and waiting is tough for you. I'm sorry for that, but unless the world ends, i will try everyday to change to be a better person that you had ever dream of. I will try over and over again.

"They didn't agree on much. In fact, they didn't agree on anything. They fought all the time and challenged each other everyday. But despite their differences, they had one important thing in common. They were crazy about each other" 

I love you very much. Now and always. 

Overturn.

I was driving to this one destination. It was a beautiful journey where i hope it will never end because it was just us against the world. What i can say, everything was bright and beautiful along the way. Everything seems so perfect and having the perfect one with me, it's just a miracle. The grass were green and the sun is bright and the weather was relaxing. I was expecting a very long journey that will never end, and i didn't mind because it only means you're with me on this never ending journey.

You're this passenger that brings Life to the journey. You're like a candle in a dark room, a rainbow after the rain but most importantly, you light up my car. You brought out the undiscovered soul that my car has. With you, i never feel weak because you are the brave in me. You're the inner strength that i never thought i had. You the switch to the rice lights in me, you Light me up like a Christmas tree. 

There are several rainy days where we will separate to have our own shelters and some days we shelter each other. There are several pit stops that we're forced to make to rethink where are we going. But every time, we would come out with a place to go and where we will be going. I can't say everyday's just sunny and rainbows, but what i am sure that it feels that way with you when you're on my passenger side of the car. Even if it's raining outside, i know i have everything i ever wanted, sitting beside me, moving on this journey with me.

In this long journey, we drove passed mountains and seas. Nothing was able to stop us from moving forward. Not even the beautiful Mother Nature. Together we were invincible. Together we conquered the Seas of Poseidon, the Olympus of Zeus and the Underworld of Hades. We were powerful, we were strong. Even The Great Wall of China is just a mere speed bump in our journey. There was nothing that is able to stop this journey.

We were one, contamination of the ugly thoughts by everyone is nothing, harmless. Many people call us stupid, moron and wasting our lives by starting this journey. But i call them, narrow-minded, judgemental and stuck up. These people are people that are trapped in their mind so long that they were unable to accept changes. These people are people that are jealous because they lost the chance of taking this long journey with The Perfect One once upon a time ago. I categorize these humans as Pathetic. Why ? Because they can't look at people being happy by doing what they missed doing once upon a time.

But we were strong, these tsunami of comments, meteors of critics and storm of judges aren't enough to end Our World. As i said before, we were invincible together. We didn't care about what The Pathetic thought about us, we just continue doing what we think we should do because we don't live of please others. We live by that code strongly, that's why the tsunami, meteors and storms are unable to end our World.

But like The Heels of Achilles, sometimes, a tiny, even the slightest crack can bring The Strongest Hero down. My car started to break down more frequently and our journey prolonged. At first, i thought it would be great because we would have more time together. But the truth, or reality is, it gets frustrating. This leads to thunder and storm, roaring in the skies, fiercely and it doesn't seem to stop. Heavy rain starts pouring non-stop and this took away the rainbow, green grass and the bright skies. It wasn't a pretty view.

Still as they say, there's a rainbow after every storm. Rainbow still appears from time to time but isn't that frequent any more. We stopped for more breaks to rethink our destination, whether we're on the right track or not. I made mistakes, i took the wrong route but each time, you generously forgave for my mistakes. As more mistakes were made, the price of forgiving got higher and slowly, became a routine. Mistakes, forgiveness, mistakes, forgiveness, mistakes, forgiveness, mistakes, forgiveness, mistakes, left, mistakes, mistakes, mistakes, mistakes, mistakes, mistakes, mistakes, mistakes, mistakes, mistakes, mistakes, mistakes, mistakes, mistakes. These wrong route keep leading us to dark, gloomy, stormy roads.

One day, during one heavy storm, it really wasn't a good scene. It was raining cats and dogs and sooner, it was raining hails. Everything was a mess and as the hail storming on my car, we got more frustrated. Reaching at your limit, you've had enough. Storm got more fierce and i got frustrated, i speed up.

Without noticing, i collided with a tree. I hit my head but the first thing that came to my mind was you. I look at the passenger seat, you weren't there. I shocked, i panic. Got off the car to look for you everywhere but you're no where to be found. I cried, and cried, and cried. Under the rain, i felt so helpless i wanted to kill myself. The storm was so heavy, i can barely see the road. Hours of wondering under the rain, hoping to see you, hoping to find you. I finally gave up. I saw an incoming truck with high lights on, i jumped in front of it and Bang !

I woke up, i thought i was dead. But i wasn't. I found myself at one of the pit stop where we stopped to have a break and rethink our destination. Just that, this time you're missing. I looked around and finally went back to the car. A letter on the passenger seat saying that you had enough, you left. I was devastated, i cried alone in the car. I was trapped inside my mistakes so long that i didn't realized you left. All there's left now is your scent and a little bit of your dying soul left at the passenger seat, slowly fading away. I cried out at the moment. Holding tight to The Ring. All that i have now is the precious memories we have together.

Then i tried to move on, then my car won't start. Slowly i see, the car keys are fading off too. Then later, in an blink of an eye, my car was gone and i'm alone, lost. Everything is fading off with you. The keys represent my Will and the car represents my Life. When you left, when i lost you, i lost everything. When i lost you, i'm lost.

You're the Soul to my Soul, the Soul to my Everything. You're my Everything.


"Since we got together, i know you were the one for me but too bad, i'm the one for you. I'm sorry i can't be your perfect one. I hope you can just forget about any promises i made, cause its already expected that i will break it someday, sooner or later.

Thank you for the memories, thank you for the times. Thank you for the care, thank you for the love. Thank you for the sacrifices made and thank you for your hands. Thank you for your hugs that always kept me warm, thank you for your kisses. Always important one, thank you for showing me true love. 

If this is really your final decision, and there's no chance of turning back, im sorry. I wish that you now are able to do things that you can't do when you're with me. I wish you find the one that is able to give you the fairytale love story you want because you deserve it. I'm sorry i can't give you all these.

Once again, this is the longest i can do. It's very hard to do this. I can't stop my tears so i should stop here. I wish, one day, i'm able to return as a better man, so i can have you back in my arms. I know i said this before to you, but at this point, it's the only wish in my Heart. 

Once again, Farewell to The Perfect One.

Despite all the lies i've made before, my love to you was never a lie. Never once was. I love you very much, Leong Yuen Mei, from the bottom of my Heart. I love you, truly, madly, deeply.

This story is part of the long story i promised. I'm very sorry i wasn't able to finish it in time. I hope understand this, especially the ending because i never did and will not ever write an ending to our story"

Langkawi Vacation (:

It's been quite some time since i last left a post. Well, today i finally happy enough to leave a new post (: First of all, i went to Langkawi Island for a last trip with my classmates, before everyone leaves and goes on their own path. Two years plus together and it's the end of Diploma course. It feels like it was yesterday when i knew everyone and this month, it's our last semester together.

Take notice, i'm not going to describe my whole four days in Langkawi cause it's too much. Heh. I'm just going to do some highlights and what fun, crazy things we did there :D and also, it's been weeks since i came back, my memory are a little bit blurry now. Hope you don't mind.

So, yes, we all took a flight to Langkawi. A total 21 of us but we split into two planes with two different departure time. After that day, i get it why people complained about the seats in AirAsia but seriously, they can't expect much from a low cost airlines. Either pay more for better seats or pay less for less comfortable. Anyway, it was an evening, close to night, flight. By the time we reached Langkawi Island, it was night already. We reached about an hour or two hours earlier than the other group.

So, we head back to the apartment we rented first to settle down while waiting for the other group to arrive. Apartment was big, reasonable price, kinda nice environment. I liked it at least. When the other group reached, they head to their apartment to settle down. In a while, we all went out for supper at a mamak stall. I know it weird to go all the way to Langkawi and eat mamak food but it was late that time, there wasn't much option.

And Yes, almost the whole class went for this last trip together. Our group was so big that we have to separate. Separate to guys and girls section. Well, it was great too. We had our guy jokes and girls maybe talked about their make up and bikinis and stuffs, i don't know. 

After supper, we all headed back and back to our apartments. We have to get two different apartment because just one can't fit all 21 people. Everyone didn't straight head to bed once reach back. Girls have their girls talk and guys have drinking activity, as usual. That night was special because we drink for a classmate who only will be joining us for a day and leaving the next day.

Due to some personal matter, this guy in the picture have to leave the next day. We, as bros, can't let him go back without any great, funny memories. We had our drinking activity, we all guys ganged up to make this guy drunk and eventually puke. This guy is a clown when he's drunk, we all laughed, drank and some drunk together. When this dude puked, it was the sign that he was at his limit. He went to rest and sleep, the rest of us went to the balcony and chit chatted for a few more hours, until it was almost morning then we head to bed.

The following day was a long and tiring day. The plan was to go visit a waterfall and then have fun at the beach and finally, a BBQ dinner at the beach. On the way to the waterfall, we stopped at spot for picture taking. The clean sea water and boats attracted us. Many pictures were taken here.

These are the five sisters, been friends forever since the beginning of Diploma

Couple 1

Couple 2

Couple 3

And finally, Couple 4

And everyone that went ! :D

After that spot, we left to look for food and we stopped at another place. Here we found food but nothing special, and again, we had no choice because it was raining and no one really knew where to get good lunch or something like that. After meal, we went and got more pictures.

We were here (:

Girls enjoy taking pictures a lot, you really have to believe that.

Enjoy his last day before he has to catch his ferry at 7PM later that evening.

After this, we straight headed to the waterfall that we were supposed to go. It was my first time being so up close with a high current waterfall.

Look at the view at this beauty, no edit on this picture. Proud to say, i was the photographer :P

Group photo (:

Small group photo, on a rock. Amazingly this rock and hold up to so many people.

Yes, sweet spot for a couple picture.

Then some crazy daredevils dude meditating !

It was very cooling standing close to it, maybe it rained before we went to the waterfall. That's why the current was so strong. Despite how strong it was, everyone went down to the river and cross it. It was hard and scary at first, cold too, but slowly, it was kinda fun and nice. Some dude even swim against the current for fun ! Anyway, the journey up and down the waterfall wasn't easy. We have to walk up a super steep hill to get there. When we reached down hill, everyone was tired and decided to have a fresh coconut water at the wooden house. It was sweet and refreshing. Rested a while and we head to the beach.

And here we are, at the beach. Not very beautiful as expected but still better than other beaches that i've went. Best so far, excluding Singapore (:

Exactly what the caption says; Girls on the beach.

Sweet couple (: 

Looks like a TV reality show where girls in bikinis splashing water to each other on the beach !

We stayed at the beach for quite some time. I swim in the sea water for quite some time too and the water was really salty. If you have any cuts or wounds, never go to the sea water. Hurts like putting salt to ulcer ! Some played banana boat but i didn't because of the fact that i can't swim and afraid of drowning to death ! Instead, i stayed back and enjoyed the view (: 

The view, beautiful isn't it ? (:

Few hours later, we all decided to head back to the apartment for a little rest before night falls because we're going to have, some sort like a BBQ party. It's a BBQ dinner, but maybe not a party. One group head back and another group stayed and had tea time, my group. Hah ! Everyone was hungry after such activity-filled day ! 

When night arrives, it was dinner time. Everyone got ready and the head off to the beach we all went this afternoon again. It was super windy and seems like it was gonna rain soon, but no fucks were given. We just carry on with our thing. There were beer anyway, there's nothing a beer can't solve ! :P

There one thing i've learnt is that it is not easy starting a fire for BBQ without lights ! 

When everything was ready to go, we started eating and BBQ foods. There were crabs, prawns, fishball and normal BBQ stuffs, chicken satay and chicken breast meat ! Not forgetting beer of course. When we were eating, rain begin to drizzle and slowly pour. We all have to shift everything into a nearby hut that was on the beach. 

In the hut !

Hut can't fit in everyone, some into the van !

Once we were done, we have to pack and clean up the mess we've made. We're responsible people ! Sadly, we found many full can beers that people only took a sip and forgot about it. We collected all the unfinished beer and split out among the guys. Man i drank a lot ! But the party did not stop there, definitely didn't stop there. Night was still young people ! :D We went to Langkawi's famous club ! 

Eaglerock !

Here we are, at Eaglerock !

Although i got drunk and very sick at the end of night, i felt it was all worth it. Not because of the cheap beers and all, but because, it was the first time almost all my classmates being crazy together, enjoying the moment. Not everyone went all out, maybe a inappropriate for some of us, but with my drunk views, i can see everyone laughing at least (:

Look before the alcohol arrives.

Started with normal Tiger Beers, four towers as starters.

Here's when things starting to get serious. Flaming Lambo (:

Oh snap ! The girls !

Pushing everyone up the stage 

All the crazy guys !

The night lasted quite long and drank a lot and a lot of alcohol that night. After almost everyone was close to down, one of my friend got Long Island ! Not much drank, i can't remember who drank but i know i didn't took only one sip. I can count the mixture of alcohol i had that night. Lets see, during BBQ time, i had 2 Tigers and 2 large Carlsberg excluding those unfinished beer i had to drink with the others. At the club, more Tiger, Flaming Lambo, Long Island. Madness ! I think i felt my kidneys eroding ! Hahahahahah ! 

Anyway, the night ended up everyone chilling outside the club and cooling off and chit chatting. Before heading back to the apartment, everyone manage to pull their self together for a group photo ! That's amazing. Girls, most of them got drunk and did some stuff that i heard about. Drunk and sober are two different people ! Heh !

When reached apartment, everyone got ready to sleep and there was no extra activity after that. Some vomit, some slept straight away. But me ? I was special, i didn't vomit. I just slept hugging the toilet bowl ! That was priceless, just thank God no one took of picture of that !

Next morning was island hopping time ! Some woke up with a hangover, some woke up fine. Thank God i was fine (: Got ready, had breakfast and went on to the location where we take boat to three island (:

The first island they brought us was just to see eagles, many eagles and eagle feeding. The island after that was nice, the water was way cleaner than the other beach. So, we had one whole hour of picture taking time !

The view (: 

This is when girls start their picture taking, loads of them but i won't post all. If not, this post will be so long that you can view it till next year !

Two models

All girls again.

This picture is nice but the problem is some pose is a bit embarassing but, i dont care :P Muahahah.

Bikini Modelling starts here !

Two out of three models.

Oh, did i mention one of the bikini model is my babe ? Just thought you all should know :P

After that island, we went to another one. This island just brought us up to see something like a lagoon or damp. I don't know how to describe but its some place with water 10 meters deep. So, it was no fun for me because i will be dead before i adapt to the water temperate. 

Beautiful view tho.

Hang around there for an hour or so, and then headed back to Langkawi Island. The journey on the boat back to Langkawi was awesome as the waves was strong. It feels like a roller coaster ride ! But cooling. Heh ! everyone enjoyed their time. After that we all head for lunch and then home. Some went back and sleep. Me and babe and a few others went for swimming ! We played monkey and all. It was relaxing and fun !

This picture is priceless ! Gonna go extra big for this :P

After swimming, everyone went back and shower and then we headed out to town for dinner. Thailand dinner for that night. Dinner was nice and tasty but i felt it was a little but overpriced, maybe it's Langkawi price. Heh !

This was dinner (:

After dinner, everyone went shopping for chocolates and alcohols ! I got no money for alcohol, so just chocolates for me. Chocolates there are super duper cheap and some chocolates they don't sell in KL ): Especially Dark Chocolate Kisses and M&Ms. These two are really really nice and not sweet ! Just awesome.

After that, we head back to the apartment for a final drinking moment. We have to finish the beer or it will go to waste. I didn't got drunk that night, but i did get high. Everyone actually, all we laughing and not being themselves. One guy really drunk :P but he has his reasons. Something bad happened to him earlier that day. No one vomit that night, everyone just retire and went to bed early (: because tomorrow was have to catch a  flight ! (:

I don't wanna talk about the next day because it was just all, packing and rushing and travel home. Last day are always the sad day (: 

So, this sums up my graduation vacation. Pre-graduation actually (: I really am happy that i got in to the class that i was in, DMK5 ! This is where i get to know different types of people from different places that live a very different life and with various background. They all are good friends that i appreciate and thank God dearly for them (:

One important thing is that i found my loved one here too (: Sure we started off awkwardly but i'm glad that we started talking at the first place (: From total strangers to sweet lovers ! And until now, we're already one year and three months together (: Time do flies when you're having fun.

I just want to thank God for bringing and leading me to great people in Life, most importantly, my loved one (: 

I love youu (: