Matter of Trust.

Shits began to happen recently. Just when i thought life is awesome, just when i thought i can handle everything that is coming towards me, i failed, weaken by others. Lost my motivation. The person that disappoint me the most is the person who is the closest to me. I saw that coming but i just wasn't ready for it.

No in the mood to tell everything. All i got to say is, to gain trust is hard and to lose it is as simple as ABC. Being the good guy alone won't do any good. Being the tolerate one always does not make things go your way.

Satisfied (:

Life has been great over these past few months. So much things i've experience and appropriate to take it as a lesson for life. I found out that everyday is just another day, but whether it is ordinary, bad or fun day, it's totally for our own to decide. Its a fun day if you made your day fun and the other way round too. Complaining about God giving us such a bad time or bad day isn't gonna change anything. I felt that it's good enough that God didn't forget to wake us up everyday and i'm happy for that. 

We should fill everyday our lives with moments, memorable moments. Until now, everyday is a great day for me. It doesn't matter that it's exam day, raining, hot, sunny or anything, i'm just happy that i woke up this morning and still able to see the weather. And on top of it all, i'm just happy for friends around me. The term "bestfriend" doesn't work for me any more. I'm just happy i have friends. It doesn't matter whether they are just normal friends or new friends. I'm still happy i have them.

And finally, i'm happy that i have you right now. Enough said (:

It's the moment in life that makes a life valuable. It doesn't really matter how long you get to live, only thing that matter in life is the moments.

Work !

Second day of work and im feeling freaking lazy, standing 9 hours pointlessly is what i have to do and i still feel lazy. They got me to sell printer, which is my first time. Totally no knowledge about printers. Ah, wrong job for the wrong people. Feel like requesting to let me sell laptops instead but there are already like ten promoters at the laptop section. I need to do something that i know, please. Printer is just really, confusing and not my thing. But anyway, after today, it's just one more day to go. Then i'm back to my normal life, being lazy at home. Hehehehhehe.

Signing off (:

Cheers (:

FML.

Now i remembered why i gave up on telling the truth all the time. Shouldn't have bother in telling the truth. They say things will not be as bad when you tell the truth but actually in the era, truth are the ones that make people sad, depressed. I told the truth and now i don't know what to do and i made some one sad and depressed. Every time i told a truth, i hurt someone's feelings. At times, i just wish people stop asking me questions and ask me to answer honestly. I'm tired of telling the truth then get people sad.

If a little lie is all i need to keep everyone around me happy, i don't see why i shouldn't lie. I rather see people around me laugh and smile than frown and cry. If i have to go to Hell to see people around me happy, i guess it's worth it.

But now, all i can do is apologize. I bet i'm the most hated person in your life right now. I just am very sorry.

FML

All of a Sudden.

All of a sudden, you remind me of our past again, right back where we started. When you mention my high school tie, it reminds me of you and me when we're in high school straight away. When you said to me that my high school tie was with you in your wardrobe, the only memory that came to me was when during high school, you used to do my tie for me every morning. I would purposely un-do my tie then pass it to you to do my tie for me.

For no particular reason,  i just like it when you do my tie for me. It gives me the i-love-you feelings. Every morning we would be in the canteen, first few tables. The you'll ask me for my tie and do it for me right before assembly starts. I would purposely reach to school early so that i can have more time with you. While waiting for assembly, we hold hands not giving a fuck  about whether teacher would see or not. We joke, i tickled you and you'll  laugh. The sound of your laughter, i can't seem to remember it any more.

But i guess all these is now in the past. All i can do is reminisce  about us.

Cheers (: