Sometimes, people can be very pathetic. But i guess that's part of a human nature. Still, i despise what a person will do for a person, knowing that person will treat you bad and had treat you bad, not fair and a stranger for a very long time. I'm not here to judge but it's just how i feel.
No matter how close a person is to you, i don't think it's a smart move to throw or put aside other people for that one person. Yes, you have your own decision but do you every think how people, those who actually ACTUALLY cared about you will feel ? Verbally you tell everyone that you treat every one equally, but in actions, you're doing the other. Don't you feel you're being selfish ? Don't get me wrong, i'm not telling you who to be friend with and who not to be friend with. At least be fair, don't be a bitch. Friends are not people to find when you're down and put aside when you have other.
You've experience and you know what the person you treasure so much can do and will do. You know how she's like, you come to us and we all advice you, were there when you needed us. Now that she's treating you a little better, you forgot about the others who were there whenever you needed ? Is it really that worth is to gain one and lost a whole bunch of others ? I really despise you, to the max.
I know this special someone is the closest person to you but recall, you have other friends that treated you like a best friend too. If you can treat the special someone so good, why can't you be fair to others that treated you good too ? Many people around you are hurt by the way you act, even those who are once so close to you. You will not know because you never once thought about how they feel. Main thing, did you even cared about how people around you feel ? Like seriously ?
Remember the times you complained about how bad she treated you and all ? Who was there for you ? I guess you forgot that. If history repeats itself, who will be there for you ? You're blinded by the lust to satisfy the special person better than other person. I'm not pin pointing anything here, but think, have a thought. Why that special someone suddenly treat you so good ? I leave this question for you to think on your own.
Lying. One question here, you said you treat everyone equally as your friend. Answer this then, why do you have to lie ? I won't say what lie, but know this, we're not stupid either. Each and every lie, we knew the truth. The walls have ears. Then, you revealed the lie you told. You think that's going to make everyone feel better and forgive you ? Certain people, yes, but as for me, it's a definitely no. You know why ? Because it's not the first time you lie. To be honest, i can still treat you like a friend, but not a best friend like last time anymore. I'm just being honest here. I bet i'm not that only one who got tired of your shits and then doing back the same fucking thing again. Ending up, hurting yourself. Why you want to make a routine of hurting yourself ? You already know where is this, how is this going to end. Worst thing is, sacrificing a whole bunch for one.
The person i once knew definitely wont behave this way. The person i once knew was actually fair to everyone. Yes, you can treat your special one in a special way, we don't mind that. Again, what we hate is how you treat others once you get what you want, then find us when you're hurt or sad or shits like that. We will definitely entertain you, but you got to know, it won't be long. There will be one day you regret behaving like this and wish you can turn back time and change everything. That's the day you lost your special someone and it will be too late because people around you got tired to even care about you.
Take care, good luck in whatever you're trying to achieve.
Bro.
