maybe.

Maybe breaking up its a good thing for me and you.
Without me, you can go on with your normal life without sadness and worry.
You can even focus on your studies. For your future.
I don't understand you. I'm not considerate. I'm not reasonable. I don't trust you. As you've been saying all this time. Every time when our outing fails. Maybe i can't blame you. Maybe i'm everything listed and more. That's why i'm not the guy you want to be with.

But, don't think i don't love you. I do love you but as time pass, we got even more busy with our own life. You're so so friggin busy with you school stuffs, studies, dancing. And i'm so busy with my tuition, studies. If you calm down and really think, you will find out that i'm not the guy you want to be with. And for last, there is no other girl. Seriously.

Inmemoryofourspecialmemorablerelationship
11.07.08 - 25.7.09

A Glass and a Heart Break ?

ARE THEY THE SAME ?

Haih..

Haih. There goes another disappointing day.
Every time we plan to go out, there's sure got to be something in the way.
This time you're sick.
I asked you whether can you really go out you say can.
As least if you're really sick, can you tell me earlier that you cant go out ?
I told my mum i'm not coming home for lunch and dinner as i was expecting to spend a hell long day with you today. And now, what am i gonna do ? I even push my outing dinner aside.
JUST FOR YOU. I hope i can take all your rejections on my outing longer. I just really hope.

As time passes, people change.
-wayneisnotlikingitonedamnfuckingbit-

Wednesday.

Its Wednesday already. Time pass and it wont come back.
School today was kinda boring. English little test today. Its was not bad.
Moral was kinda fun because teachers was not teaching.
We played with rolling marbles, buttons and arm wrestling.
Today is tuition-free day and my mum comes home late on Wednesdays.
So, i'm free to use the computer till she's back at around 4.30pm.
Signing off.

Sigh.

Well, its the end of another weekend. Sighh..
Tomorrow have to wake up early again then school and all.
Assembly tomorrow. Gawd.
Another Monday another bad day. It sucks.
So, enjoy your weekend while you still can.
Just a few more hours, minutes and seconds then its Monday !

Hmmmm. Today.

Went to KLCC today. To watch Ice Age 3 : Dawn of the Dinosaurs.
Chai paid for the tickets. *Thanks Chai*
Well, i did booking madness.
Goh Ee Lynn ! FFK ! Last minute !
But, i don't blame her laa. She will be the only girl if she goes.

So yeahh. It was a good movie. Hopefully i won't regret for not watching Harry Potter.
So, before movie, we went to have a BRANCH *breakfast + lunch*
I had McD Apple Pie and Chai had a breakfast set.
Gary, Shaka and Zhe Wei had sizzling mee.
After that we went for the movie. It ended at about 1.10 pm.
Gary had to go home early so we went back to Wangsa Maju.
Gary went home then the rest of us went cyber cafe for DotA ! MADNESS !
Played till about 4 plus then we all plan to go home.

sometimes you do confuse me.

Hey. You know what ? I LOVE YOU.
But, sometimes i'm confused.
A minute ago you said you love me, then later i saw other people calling you *dear*
And you like accepting it like its normal. Its like you're coupling with him.
Sometimes whenever is go fs and see your page, that guy is always there saying :
*muacks i love you dear and all*
I quit my fs is because of this. I don't want to think much.
But, i can't resist the feeling to see you. Your pictures and all.
Sometimes i really doubt it whether am i good enough for you.

*waynechewisnotlovingitmuch*

Dinner.

Had a great dinner yesterday at Selangor Club.
My auntie paid for the dinner.
The food was prefectto but the price was kinda expensive.
And guess who i met ?
*KELVIN* who would have expect to meet a friend from school having dinner at the same place ?
HAHAHAHAHA.
And my two little grandnephews. Gawd they are cute !
The way they laugh. It was like really laughing without any shy feeling.
They really burst laughing loudly in the public. OMGosh. Freaking cute.
Got pictures of them.

BONUS

Tonight. More stuffs.

Its a great night tonight.
My mum is at Melaka and my dad sleeps early, as usual.
My elder sis is out and won't be home early.
My little sis is doing her own things. Won't give me troubles.

Here am i blogging and listening to Jason Mraz's songs.
Doing my moral project at the same time.
TV is off. Best time to relax myself in front of the computer with some songs.
If every night is like today, i won't mind studying at this time. I can focus more in fact.
Although there is no one to chat with, i some how don't feel boring. Its so quite right now.
Just Jason Mraz's songs i hear. Mmmmmmm.

Well, i hope that tonight will last longer as i don't get it every day.
But, nothing is forever. Even a long movie comes to an end some day.
Well look, my sister is asleep already. Its the best night in this month.

Lets see, Open Day is over. Although my mum did not took my results but she know it all.
As you know, mums know everything. Still get the scolding and i was kinda rude to my dad.
I can't deny it. I got no reasons to deny actually. He gave me advice and maybe i took it wrongly.
My mum was right i guess. Or maybe i was born to be stupid.
I'll go with both. Mum says i never put in much effort in my studies. She's right !
Just that i never notice it myself. I was wrong to be rude to her too.
I don't study much but should i blame the teachers or myself ?
Myself too i guess. You can say that i never pay attention in class. I don't know myself.
Well, Mum Dad, i can't show you my best results but i'll do my best.

Another thing. They are teaching Science and Math in Malay again.
Is it a WoooHoo or a BooooHooooo ?
Well, based on my opinion, its a BoooHooo ! Malay language is important obviously.
But, English is an international language. English is used world wide and its very obvious.
Students here wishes to go out country to study, mostly. Most of the country uses English.
We can't expect other country to learn Malay language just for Malaysians.
Its better to learn a language that is being used world wide that expecting others to learn us.
Okay, i'm done. Don't want to ruin my one-in-a-million night.

Back to my night, chatting with Brandon currently. Just the bro i need in such night.
He's the best guy you can find around. I'm damn lucky to find a bro like him, seriously.
He's a person with personality and loyalty money can't buy or even afford !
I knew him since kindergarden. Then, same primary school and now secondary. God's will huh ?
That's what made us best friends. 12 years of best budds. What could i ask more ?
He's the guy to talk with when you're happy, moody, sad, you name it !
We share stuffs and tonight i'm having the best relaxing mood. Thank God ! =)
Well my bro, just a message. Whenever you need me, just text or ring me. I'll try to be there.

Its time for my sleep guys although i don't want too. But, my eyes are so heavy.
Hope to get a night like this soon or occasionly, i don't mind. =)