Fundamentals of ....

Last piece of shit tomorrow. Last subject, last day of exam ! After that, one month break ! Woots ! Fundamentals of Marketing ; a long piece of subject that lecturer expects us to understand completely in seven busy weeks ! Now, that defines INSANE. But lucky, not all the Chapters will be coming out but still, lots to study and memorize and understand. Ahh, gonna do a last read-thru and revision and sleep ! Heh.

I don't understand.

I really can't get you off my mind, even though it has been so many months. Sometimes i do regret letting you go, but then again, it might be for the best. Just wish i could turn back time and make things right. Occasionally, memories of us will just come flashing back to my mind. Good, happy memories. When we're in high school, when i go visit you at your hostel, our date, our first date, monthsary texts.

Still, i hope you're having a better life without me. Maybe that's why you chose to leave, to change things.

Will never be the guy,

who says " I love you "

to you, any more.

Screwed.

Today is the first day of Finals, and it didn't went well. Totally a bad day, a bad subject and i'm expecting to fail this subject. Thank God and pray to God that i won't. I don't wanna fail any more subject until i'm done with Diploma, please God. Well, not just me but many didn't think this paper was easy also, why not just pray for everyone ? Heh. Hope we all pass with flying colours. Colours of the wind, rainbow colours, Nyan Cat's poop ! Second day of Finals tomorrow. God bless all of us who are having exams !

Ciaos.

True friend ?

True friend ? I once thought you were my true friend, but now i know, you're not. We were once close, once got each other's back, once brothers from another mother and once best friend. Once you were really really my best friend. Well, i guess i'm wrong. Really really wrong and being dumb for putting efforts to bring back the old us together.

I truly never thought you were that kind of person. Because of a girl, you can end up hating me. Because of a girl, you can forget me and let our friendship go, let our friendship down. You can tell me " That's not it ! " but i've seen many people like you.

Remember last time when we used to hang out together almost everyday, we work together and every time you need me, i'm always there. That was when before you had girlfriend. I guess she changed your life a lot, correct me if i'm wrong. I had been a true friend to you, and expecting in return, you be my best friend too. But i guess it's a just-take-and-no-giving world, eh ?

True friend. It's hard to find a true best friend. Never give in too much or treat them too well, we might just get sad with the results. Like me now. Despite all, i still do not regret knowing you and i hope we'll be real best friends one day.

Friends, something everyone need.

No matter how great your life is,

without friends life is never complete.

Record broken, new high score.

Everyone should be happy that they get to live for another day. Many people around the world fight and strive hard to live another day. We wake up on a bed while other might wake up beside a dump. We have bread for breakfast while other might not even have breakfast. So, we should really appreciate Life no matter what.

Sure shit happens sometimes and things can go very very wrong beyond our imagination. But, we can't really expect that things will ALWAYS go our way. Sometimes, we have to hope for the worst so that we'll be ready to accept the worst that might happen. We must always be ready for circumstances that we will encounter. Circumstances such as recession. We should expect recession and start saving money now just in case recession really occur. Things like this are unpredictable. We wouldn't know when the economy will fluctuate. This is just one of the example of circumstances we should be expecting and to be ready for it.

People usually complain that, Life isn't fair. But the way i see it, Life is totally fair because Life do fuck us all up at one point. People must not link a person's richness, a person's luck, a person's belongings, a person's successful career and a person's life with the statement " Life isn't fair ". Rich successful people work hard to achieve what they have today. If they can do it, i don't see what others can't. The phrase " Life isn't fair " is just an excuse for us all to avoid the fact that we're just lazy, put less effort towards a work or have a job that we don't like. We must no blame Life for what you're facing or what you're doing everything. God gave us Life, and it is our responsibility to shape our life the way we want it to be. We have the sense to make right choices and think rationally. We can't always expect some one to help us in doing something. This expecting is one cause that made people lazy. They just expect for some one to knock on their door and offer them a job. They expect God will do everything for them.

People control their own life. Life has no mind of their own. Life don't choose to fuck us up. What made life fuck us is our own actions. If we do good, life would be great. If we do bad, life would be Hell. A good and bad life really depends on how we live it, how we shape it and what we do with it.

People need to change and start appreciating Life and stop whining about shit that happens to them because there's definitely no one will go knocking on your door, offering you a new life.

Happy Birthday, Dad !

Happy Birthday, Dad !

Don't worry about getting old cause no matter how old are you,

what age are you,

you'll always be my Number 1 Dad !

All i can say is just,

I LOVE YOU <3

New books for Sem break !

And this is how i spend my RM150 book voucher.

Another RM30 i used it to buy a book for my friend.

I'm gonna try to finish all the books in my coming semester break.

If nothing comes in my way, 3 books should be easy peasy. Hahahha

Feelings.

I gave in to my feelings too many times in my life. Sometimes, it leads me to happiness and sometimes it leads me to sadness, frustration and full of regret. Feelings change from time to time, rapidly depends on what happens around us. From being happy, we can turn sad by just listening what people say about us. From being sad, we can also turn happy by just being around with our friends. People say that we should control our feelings and don't let our feelings take over us but this is easier to be said than done. The suffering and hard times when we have to hide our feelings, let it be happiness or sadness, is sometimes just unbearable. But at times, we really just have to hide our feelings for the betterment of everyone around us, avoid misunderstandings and other possible problems.

When we're happy, we tend to let our happiness take over us completely because we're just too happy to think about others around us. Its sad to say, sometimes we have to keep our happiness to our own. Sounds ridiculous ? I know, but it's true. For example, you're celebrating because you get the finest results for your Finals. To you, you're just happy but for others that didn't make it or lose to you, they will think you're showing off and jealousy occurs and so is misunderstandings. So, its sad to say, but we can't give in to our happiness fully.

The sadness part is Love. I give in to love easily and too much. I just go for the girls i have feelings for, and many of them, i regretted for letting my feelings take control over me. Just have feelings for a girl doesn't mean you love her. You know you love her when she's the person you wanna be with everyday, her text are the only one you want to see firstly in the morning and lastly at night, her presence makes you smile for no reason and many more. Feelings only show you the this girl MIGHT be the one, just a might. You have to understand the girl in details to know whether she's really the one. As i gave in to my feelings too much, most of my relationships didn't last long. I regretted all of those days, those time wasted on the wrong person, those hearts that i've hurt.

Feelings are some kind like instinct. It only gives you a twitch, a feel. Giving in to your feelings fully is like taking a gamble because that feel might either cause you good or bad.