Days ~

Went for a food date on 28th ! And it was fun, except for the part where i made you emo again. Forget about that, lets see the foood. Yumm yummm ! 

 This is chocolate brownies with vanilla ice cream at Amore. Taste awesome !

Especially for chocolate lovers, very chocolately.

 We both love fries, so suggested Carl's Jr. It was also awesomeee !

 After that, something healthy. Some kind of fruit juice ! Expensivee ! ):

 She's busy ! Juice Works model now !

 And made me take stupid pictures ! Ugly ):

Then i made her emoo ! And the sad parts begins. Let's just skip the sad part ! Heh. Went to another desert shop before sending her home that day.

Then on the 29th, we went out and study for Marketing Environment test ! For the whole day, and i actually studied. Although more talking, but still i studied.

 Taking a break from studying (:

 And W H A T IS THIS ?! Hahahaha.

After studying till about night, we went for dinner. Pan Mee for dinner, and after that SS2 pasar malam. My first time there ! Bought a phone cover for myself (: A pretty awesome one, because she chose it.

Then, went to Starbucks to continue studying !

 Mocha Praline or something, i liked it but she didn't ):

 Another break from studying ! Hahahaha !

 So called studying :P

Studied till about 11.30pm then send her home. Because we both were kinda tired already. Heh.

And 30th, exam day ! I guess we all did okay.

Hello sexy, smexy ! 

Loves,

Again ?

Guess i did it again ? Actually, what did i do ? Le Sigh. Running out of tolerance.

Happy Birthday !

First and foremost, i want so wish myself Happy Birthday, so Happy Birthday to myself ! I never had so much celebration for my birthday in a very long time. I want to thank all my friends and you for doing so muchh ! (: Appreciate it a tonne lots !

Celebrated my birthday with my loved one this year. Heheheheh ! Went watch Paranormal Activity 4 as a start off for a good day. We went to Pavilion for the movie, 12:00 in the noon.

 It wasn't as scary as expected, but still, managed to scare me a few times.

It was just okay.

 After movie was the fun part ! Lunch ! We went for a lunch buffet at Tokyo Street, Pavilion. It was more like a meat buffet ! Free flow of lamb, chicken and beef ! Paradise for meat lovers !

 

Su-Kiyaaaa 

The waiting line was looooong. So, waited for some times, about half an hour till we got a table for two. Lots of Koreans yesterday tho.

 In lineee !

And finally, a table ! 

 Preparations !

 I'm a meat lover, so, it's paradisee ! I'm a happy boy ! Heh.

 Look at that, those meat ! Beef, chicken and lamb ! Lots of lamb !

 Green tea ice cream ! Not mineee !

 

This, this is minee ! :D

After a very heavy lunch, we walked back to KLCC to catch another movie ! Ted, wanted to watch this movie for a long time and it's worth the money !

 

 It's so funny that i laughed almost throughout the whole movie ! Worth the moneyy !

Don't watch it in cinema tho, they delete a lot of scenes ! DVD timee !

After movie, we got nothing to do and we're not hungry. Walked around at the KLCC park, looking for good spots to take picture. Due to it was a public holiday yesterday, KLCC Park was kinda packed.

 View of yesterday's KLCC from the park ! Not edited !

 Tadaaa ! Camwhoring ! Hahahaha !

 Got some stranger to take a picture for us (:

 Auditioning for Public Bank's model ! Hahahaha ! Nahhh, joking.

 She claims herself as a model. Agree ? x)

After a night of thousand pictures, decided to go back. But before that, she went a get me birthday doughnuts ! Heheheheh ! Cakes are too mainstream.

 Green coloured are not mine also. Hahahahah !

After that, we make our way to the LRT station and went back.

 In the train. Been a long day, both kinda tireddd.

And then, blow candles time ! Heheheheh !

 Happy Birthday to me ! (:

Went SS2 after that. Went a get our dinner or supper at Murni.

 Dinner !

 First was Toshiba showgirl, then Public Bank and now Murni too !

Potential ! Heheheheh ! x)

And that's how i celebrated my birthday. I just want to thank you for such beautiful day and i really appreciate it ! Thank you for your willingness to spend your whole day with me eventhough you actually have to go somewhere. Not only this, thank you also for been there when i needed you and for spending time with me at other days ! 

I lovee you soo soooo muchhh !

A day before my birthday, my classmates celebrated for me also. Appreciate it too ! 

Another great birthday year ! All the celebrations (:

Not forgeting, all the wishes i got on Facebook, messages and calls. Your wishes means a lot to me (:

Thank you all ! With love (:

Thank God for such good friends,

And of course, thank God for you too (:

 

Model ! Hawttt !

 First shot !

 Second Shot !

Thrid Shot ! Perfect !

New Toshiba show girl !

Happy Birthday in Advanceee !

 

Happy Birthday in advance to myself ! Heh. I wanna thank my classmates ,  i meant friends, for the celebration today and of course for the gift. What i love among everything is the birthday card. Awesome birthday card with my wishes. Heheheheheh ! So sweet of you all <3 p="p">

Thank you all for the celebration ! I really appretiate it a lot (:

Then the previous night, went Starbucks again to do our assignment. Heh. And we can never be serious even when we're doing assignment. 

 This is me doing assignment, more to Facebooking actually and talking crap most of the time. Distracting youuuu ! Hahahahhaha !

 And this is youu, acting macam yes. But actually is not yes at all !

Stupid dumb dumb <3 p="p">

And this is chocolate chip something something, failed to recall.

 

But over all, i had a great time with you ! Eventhough we just went out and do assignment. Heh. Love is in the air ! <3 br="br">

It.Hurts.So.Much.

" Love me ? Hahahahha. Joke. ". Those words, it hurts so much. Deep to the core. I don't think i can bear the pain for long. Till now, you still don't trust me. I don't know what else to do any more. I've tried so hard till it hurts and yet you still add salt into my wounds. You think, me not saying " I love you " last night hurts ? You have no idea what is Hurt. I don't know what hurts me more, you not trusting me that I love you or i failed to make you trust me.

Just because i didn't say I love you last night means i don't love you ? Just because i was playing a game and gave you late replies means my love to you is a joke ? Come on, you playing game in my face and i didn't say that you don't love me. Maybe - wait, scratch that. I just don't understand you. What's is a perfect guy to you ? A guy that listens to you all the time ? I admit im not presistant, i can't live on same routine everyday of my life.

I gave up so much for you and you tell me you don't trust me ? " I break my promise that i will trust you, sorry ". That's all you could say ? It strains my Heart when you sent me this. Just imagine if you're in my shoes, how would you feel ? If i tell you that i don't trust that you love me, how would it feel ? Or is it that my past that is affecting your trust towards me ? My past that i was a playboy.

So many unanswered questions. Me, giving in all the time doesn't mean you should make it as a tool. Me, being patient all the time doesn't mean i will be patient forever. Told you before i have a limit, don't reach it. You hurted me so much the previous time, and yet i still bear it and apologize and give in. But, sorry, not this time. This is just way over the line. I won't give in this time.

Borderline, babe.

F O U R .

Eighteen of October Two Thousand and Twelve

Today was a great day. The weather was nice and it's our Fourth Monthsary (: Four months had passed by since we've been together. We've been through thick and thin, storm and rain and still we're strong, keeping our relationship alive till now. Things had been rough throughout these four months but that doesn't seem to be a problem. We're still happily together and we still manage to put smiles and bring happiness to each others life (:

You light up my life (: 

We walked together through thick and thin (:

We see eye to eye, to understand each other moree (:

Importantly, we're always by each other's side (:

Once again, babe. Happy Fourth Monthsary (: and Ohh, i like your teeth ! It brings happiness to everyone around you. Heheheheheh ! Including me :D

Faith and fate brought us together,

and Oh, Starbucks too ! 

Loves,

The HAHA Theory

I know we shouldn't laugh at other people's stupidity, but desperate moments call for desperate measures. Sometimes, making yourself happy is as important as saving a life of your loved one. Being happy is the one of the main key to having a happy life. Sadness only shorten your life span and happiness gives healthy life, that's what i think. So before you let sadness in your life, think is it worth it ? Is it worth it to shorten your life span for something or someone that makes you sad ? Or do you want a healthy life with things or people that make you happy ? (:

Those moments.

We all have our own hard time, sad times and times of desperation. Those moments we feel that we can't go on, those moments we feel that we ran out of options and moments when we feel like suicide was the only option. We lose our sense of direction, we let our emotions overwhelmed us and we allow Mr Pessimist take full control of our mind. 

Even the most optimist person of Earth will face one of this moments. It's not wrong to have hard times and all, but it is wrong if we don't contain or control our emotions. A quote saying " Don't make promises when you're happy, and don't decide when you're angry " is basically telling us that, emotions are a huge part of a person. When we're happy, we can agree with anything and when we're mad, we can make the stupidest and usually regretful decision of our lives.

When we're at our lowest point, we give up on everything around us and everyone in the world. We give up on life and hope. We forget people we really cared about us, we forget true friends that we have and we forget God. Then we get pissed with everything in the world, kids, wives, parents' and the society and also everything that has ever happened. At one point, we'll finally get tired and break down. Then we feel that the world and everyone else turned their back on us. We feel alone and lost in a dimension of sadness and sorrow that no one cared about. 

What we don't realize is everyone has a person or more than one who will care about us. Usually parents' and friends that were always by your side when you're at your lowest. But the important one is the person is your Heart, God and everything that matters the most to you. If we calm down and take notice of our own situation, we'll find out that things isn't as bad as you thought it was and you'll know that there are actually people out there going through a much worse time than you are. 

Sorrows and sadness aren't mean for you to give up on life and hope. It is meant for you to grow stronger so that sorrow and sadness can't hurt you again. Sure, it's is perfectly normal to be sad for awhile but just don't let your sadness take over. Try remembering those moments when life was actually perfect, remembering those people who actually cared about you and people who loved you with all their heart.

It's not worth it to let go of your life, hopes and dreams just because you can't handle your sadness. There's more to life than just sadness. Suicidal is never and will never be the answer to problems. Abandoning the world is never the answer also and forgetting people around you will never be the answer to anything. Share your problems with your good friends, don't be Superman and keep your problems to yourself.

When you approach to people with your problem, be ready and expect them to say things like " Just let it go " or " Just forget it " or " There are bigger fishes in the sea " and shits like that. You can't blame them for giving these sound-simple advises because that is all they can do. They're not in your shoes so they don't know what are you going through. Best advices you can get is from people who had go through what you are going through. Other people only can listen to your problems and that's the best they can do.

Sadness and sorrows will always occur throughout our journey of life and the only thing we can do is overcome it. Appreciate people around you because they will be the one to help you up when you fall. Give a total of ZERO fucks to things that you don't like to hear or see. Let things that hurt you most go, let people that hurt you the most go and don't let them bring your life down. Remember, you can't prevent sadness, you can only overcome it.

Hurt.

The feeling of a love one not trusting you does hurt to the core of a person's Heart. It has been few days in a row now, i made you angry and sad almost everyday. But you know, sometimes i don't know what to do. I've tried to avoid arguments but it seems unavoidable. I've tried by giving in to arguments, i've tried to stop doing things you don't like me to do. But, our argument still seems endless. The one reason is because both of us choose to forget about the problem, rather than to settle it. Then the same problem occurs again after a certain period.

I've been thinking everyday and night, what can i do to keep you happy, to make you trust me. All i've ever wanted was for you to be happy, and i thought i can do it alone. I thought i can make you happy. But, these few days i'd realized that i can't do it alone. I can't force happiness. For you to be happy, i need you to be happy with me. Are you happy when you're with me ? Or is it just me, failed to make you happy ? When you cry or you're sad, i dont put the blame on myself for nothing. It's because i felt it is my fault, i failed to make you happy and keep you happy. Sometimes i do wonder, do i give you more memorable memories or more sorrow ones ?

All i want is for you to be happy. I can give and take all i want to, just please let me know, show me that you're happy with me. Every time you cry because of me and what i do, it does hurt me too. What hurt me most is when you doubted me, when i can feel that you don't trust me.

I can't do everything alone, i need you to do it with me. To keep us both happy.

Love is strengthen by trust and faith.

Love is weaken by doubts.

Useless

That day you asked me exact this question, i failed to answer. I can't even find excuse for myself. You burst out asking me this. Then i realized. Yeah, i was never there when you needed me but you were there when i needed you. I got no excuse to defend myself about this. I admit i wasn't always there when you needed. I'm sorry about that, i failed you. You calling me useless, you were right. I'm useless and i'm sorry. I can't give you what you need most, me beside you when you needed me. I'm really a fucking useless guy and i'm sorry about that.

Heyy There, Yeah You !

Happy Mid Autumn Festival ! Tanglungs and candles (:

First of all, Happy Mid Autumn Festival ! A once a year festival where we eat mooncakes ! I still remember those times when the whole neighbourhood is decorated with lanterns and candles. Neighbours and kids, playing and eating mooncake together. Those were the days (: As time go on, people tend to forget about culture and tradition. They think of these culture and tradition as outdated activities or old fashioned. What they actually don't realize is cultures and tradition shows who we really are, shows what our race does, shows how harmony are we by celebrating festivals like Mid Autumn and importantly, shows how can we all get along and enjoy the celebration together.

I really do hope, in the future, i really hope future generations get exposure to their own culture and tradition. Wish in future, i still get the chance to see celebrations like this (: 

Truly am ):

" Hey babe, i'm sorry for what happened today. I really didn't mean to, i didn't WANT to hurt you. You know i've been with her for a year and nine months and your birthday is the exactly same date as hers. The way i used to remember my once-anniversary with her is really by her birthday because 21st and 20th are so close together. I've been using that way to remember my-once-anniversary for exactly a year and nine months. What exactly happened earlier was, you were talking about birthday and i was thinking about your birthday, then suddenly i talked about anniversary and 21st just slipped out, as a bad habit of my own. I'm very sorry because i know i've hurt you.

But there are things you got to know. Importantly is i got no reason to lie to you about anything okay ? I've let go of her long time ago because i found out that you're better. Yes, you act a lot like her but that's not the reason why i love you now. It's never like that. You're special in your own way.

I love you because i know i can be myself with you, i can depend on you, i know you'll be there when i need you, i know you care a lot for me and i love you because i love you. I don't need reasons to love you actually, because you're the only reason why i fall in love in the first place. I trust you.

I'm an asshole, i'm a jerk, i'm a bastard. You name it ! But trust me that i really do love you, you and you only (: " 

- By The Heart

There's no love,

If there's no you.