FML.

Now i remembered why i gave up on telling the truth all the time. Shouldn't have bother in telling the truth. They say things will not be as bad when you tell the truth but actually in the era, truth are the ones that make people sad, depressed. I told the truth and now i don't know what to do and i made some one sad and depressed. Every time i told a truth, i hurt someone's feelings. At times, i just wish people stop asking me questions and ask me to answer honestly. I'm tired of telling the truth then get people sad.

If a little lie is all i need to keep everyone around me happy, i don't see why i shouldn't lie. I rather see people around me laugh and smile than frown and cry. If i have to go to Hell to see people around me happy, i guess it's worth it.

But now, all i can do is apologize. I bet i'm the most hated person in your life right now. I just am very sorry.

FML

All of a Sudden.

All of a sudden, you remind me of our past again, right back where we started. When you mention my high school tie, it reminds me of you and me when we're in high school straight away. When you said to me that my high school tie was with you in your wardrobe, the only memory that came to me was when during high school, you used to do my tie for me every morning. I would purposely un-do my tie then pass it to you to do my tie for me.

For no particular reason,  i just like it when you do my tie for me. It gives me the i-love-you feelings. Every morning we would be in the canteen, first few tables. The you'll ask me for my tie and do it for me right before assembly starts. I would purposely reach to school early so that i can have more time with you. While waiting for assembly, we hold hands not giving a fuck  about whether teacher would see or not. We joke, i tickled you and you'll  laugh. The sound of your laughter, i can't seem to remember it any more.

But i guess all these is now in the past. All i can do is reminisce  about us.

Cheers (: 

We're all the Same (:

I agree very much with this post. We're all the same even though we look different on the outside. We shouldn't really judge any one whether they're black, white, homosexual, bisexual and etc because we're all the same on the inside. One heart, same number of bones and number of organs.

'Nuff Said (:

One quote, 

'nuff said for the day (:

It's Time !

It's time to unleash The Study Mood. Exams are coming soon and i'm still not done with all assignments and presentations. So much to do, so little time. Mid Terms next week and i still haven't study a chapter yet. Presentation at the following week and i'm still not done with my assignment. Now i feel the pain of last minute work. Every semester is the same, last minute is the time when i'm super productive. Which is not a good thing. Won't have sufficient time to re-check work and do corrections if there is any.

Next is this semester i have to re-sit a paper from Semester 1 that i've failed and that subject, i haven't even took out the notes to even look at them. Which means instead of 5, i have 6 subjects for exam this semester. I'm afraid i can't cope with it. Ahh, crap !

Well, i guess it's really the time to start studying but feeling so lazy. I'm gonna go TRY studying anyway

Signing off (:

Cheers (:

Trust.

Like what people usually says, hard to gain and easy to lose. What people don't realize is it's even harder to gain it back again for the second time. I guess, i've lost a person's trust without myself knowing until some one told me. All i can do is apologize and remind others out there to appreciate others trust towards you and don't do things that will destroy other's trust on you.

Fucked up.

Sorry.

This post is specially dedicated to a special some one. 

I just want to apologize, sorry for things i've said that hurt you badly. I didn't mean any of them in a bad way, i really don't. Sorry i can't be the one, i truly am sorry. The problem is not you, it's just me. You're great and all, and i'm really fond of you, happy being with you and even sometimes you make me forget about my ex. But, the problem is me.

I really don't want to be your first. Your first should be a better guy, not a playboy. Your first should be the one who's always by your side, not a guy who's even lazy to drive. Your first should be the one that makes you happy, not the one who always hurt you with words. Your first should be a great one, not a fool. You deserve better for a first. At that night, when i asked you to simply go couple with a guy then only come back to me, i was really just joking. I really didn't mean to hurt you. What i really meant was just to tell you to go find a better guy, not me.

Another thing is i'm not ready yet. Yes, sometimes you do make me forget about my ex but my memories of me and her just keep coming back, randomly. It's just isn't fair when i'm still in love with my ex and you're there left hanging. That's why i chose to tell make things clear. I don't want you to waste your time waiting for me or anything. You can find a better person, i'm sure there are many better guys out there waiting for you.

I'm really sorry, sincerely. I'm sorry if you felt that i played your feelings. I'm sorry for everything. I just wished that we can be like last time, just close friends. Going out on dates together and all. Nothing complicated. Maybe now is just not the right time yet. I don't know what else to tell you besides apologizing. I really do feel bad. I'm sorry, truly from my heart.

Sorry.

Sometimes ,

Words can't really sound everything you're feeling neither does action alone. It takes the combination of actions and words to really prove that you care for some one. You can say you love some one, care about some one but those words doesn't mean anything if you can't prove it. Words will be just words. 

Action speaks louder (:

Cheers (:

The Limit.

We can't stay calm all the time. We all have our limits, which where we will burst and explode. Never push a person to surpass his or her limit. You might just regret doing so.

Limitations.

June !

It's June already, the 7th month of the year. Another 5 more months and there goes 2012 ! Time really do pass by fast. I still can recall what i've done in January like it was yesterday ! So far, 2012 has been pretty fair to me. Ups and downs happened equally, grateful for it. 

Happy Birthday to my classmate, Xiao Sze ! Birthday on 3rd of June but we celebrated for her earlier as she's going to Kulai on her birthday for a week. Steamboat night, fun night, non-alcohol night and a great night ! I've found something better than alcohol, and it's laughter (: Birthday girl is the girl in red, sitting down ! The theme of the day was supposed to be yellow but i don't have any yellow shirt ! The best i could do was go green. Happy Birthday, Vince ! (:

Cheers (:

I Just Want To Be With You.

Another month had passed, and i still just want to be with you. Still want you to be back into my arms.

I do, still.