Without Me.

(:

Y U NO Stay Put ?!

Been spending a lot lately and by a lot, i really mean A LOT ! In this month alone, i think i've used RM500 in total, maybe more. It feels like my money is flying away by its own ! Don't know what i spent on also. The only thing i bought was a speaker, which only cost me about RM30 and i don't recall buying anything else. Guess, that means food and parties. I've been eating a lot too lately, i don't know why but i just have that huge appetite. Never ate so much ever since 14 years old and i've put on weight and all. Very depressing ! If i control eating, i might solve and financial problems and my weight problems. Heheheheheh ! My the strength be with me.

What's next is assignments ! All coming in at the same time and due at the same time also ! In between, we have tutorials and presentations and all. I don't know how to handle this Semester and it's already week 5. Another 9 more weeks then Finals and honestly, i haven't started studying yet. Assignments haven't start yet, not even a draft. Taking things very easy this semester and beginning to regret ! Wasted so much time sleeping and playing but one thing i won't regret is when i'm partying ! I will never regret partying because it was worth my time and fun !

Signing off ! (:

Missing Piece .

" There's a missing beat,

Inside of me,

The rhythm of my Heart,

Hits unevenly,

There's a missing piece,

Inside of me, "

- David Choi (:

Long lost Missing piece.

After so long, after so many months, i still failed to forget you. Still can't get you out from my Life. After so long, i still missed you on random days. I tried going with the flow, but looks like it's going no where. I just can't forget you, it is much much harder than i thought it would be. You've became a part too deep of my Life, that when you left, a big part of my Life just disappeared in a snap. But, this isn't the worst part.

What's worst is watching you got over me already, knowing you got over me, feeling we're not even attached any more. It's like we've became Strangers. Yes, we do chat sometimes but it was just strangers-like chat. Those kind like to check on each other about how's life had been going and all. It's just so sad, depressing.

Every time we chatted, there's this urge in me to tell you " I miss you ", there's this urge in me to ask you " Can you please forgive me for all that i've done ? ", there's this urge in me to ask " Can we get back together ? ", there's this urge in me to say to you " I LOVE YOU ! ". There so many things i wish to tell you and with all my Heart, i really wish we could go back to the time when our Love is strong.

Every time when i see you update or post something on social networks, i will just automatically click into your profile. Just to check how's your Life had been going. Sometimes when i thought of you on random days, i would just look at our picture together. Although we didn't take much picture together, what i have with me is enough to keep me thinking about you for hours, sometimes day. Reminiscing our past, our times together, sweet and bitter or bitter-sweet moments too.

But then again, it seems like you're much happier now, worry-free, get to do things you like and you smile all the time. You're joyful and happy ! I'm glad that you're happy and living your Life the way you wanted to.

Maybe breaking-up was the right decision for you, and i'm little glad that i didn't went against it. At least one of us is happy. Hopefully your next will be better than me, much better. The one who can really understands you. Hopefully, when that day comes, i've already got over you, got over us.

I really do miss you, right now. Yesterday, today and tomorrow, J.

One person being happy

is better than no on is.

I love you, still.

Eclipse.

Things like this, an Eclipse, don't happen all the time. It beautiful and harmful. We are told that if we look directly into an Eclipse, we will go blind. Such beauty come with such harmful effect. We are not allowed to look at such beauty directly. What a waste.

Cheers (: