Stop there, LYNAS !

So, yeah. Stop Lynas for Malaysian's sake !

Avengers ! and Other Stuff.

Today was a suffering and fun day. Suffering is because i didn't get enough sleep and i'm awfully tired and fun is because i watched The Avengers ! One awesome, funny, action movie you cannot miss. The Hulk, Thor, Ironman, Captain America, Black Widow and the spy, i forgot what's his name. The Hulk was shit awesome, my favorite character in this movie !

Then, we went for a walk at the KLCC park. It was all great and fun.

I don't know how to work with this repositioning of the pictures, so just gonna leave it in a retarded, uneven position like that way it is right now. Well, here are some pictures we took today. Kinda good weather for a walk.

Then there's one spot in that park which bring back memories of my first date her. That was the very first official date with her, and that time was before we got together. Well, i'm not going all emotional because of this cause it's actually a happy memory. It actually made me smile cause all i was thinking was the time when we walked together, chit chatting. The first date when we went for Alvin and The Chipmunks, decided to walk at the park to pass time. I remembered it like it was just yesterday. Looking at the Maxis Tower for the time. I miss you (:

I just want to sleep !

Firstly, it's 4 in the morning right now and i can't sleep ! Been trying to sleep from 1 am till now and still can't fall asleep. Why insomnia at this time ? In addition, i got a very long day tomorrow ! Oh my goodness, how am i suppose to survive for another 24 hours ? Suppose to bring a friend for a tour around college campus tomorrow at around 8 in the morning later and then after that i got outing with classmates for i guess will take almost the whole day. I guess, Red Bull is the solution for me to survive a whole day later. I gave up on trying to sleep now. I'm afraid that if i sleep now, i won't be able to wake up later at 8 in the morning. Such a wrong time for insomnia.

Then the thoughts in my head, all kinds of thoughts. This is the third day i have sleeping problems. Every sound is affecting me and the thoughts. Thoughts like what to do tomorrow, how's next semester gonna be, will i get good results, what movie to watch next, what to eat tomorrow and others. All these thoughts is preventing me from sleeping and i just can't stop those thoughts. I do face this sleeping problem once a while but never three days in a row ! This time is just extreme. I seriously just want to sleep, why can't i just stop thinking ?! Haaa shit ! Gonna start my day in few hours time. For now, hope music puts me to sleep.

I really just wanna freaking sleep !

Cheers (:

To do Nothing

It's been so boring lately. College mates back at their home town and secondary school mates are just getting lesser and they're not the out going type. Been staying at home, doing nothing almost every day. Spent my time watching movie and Family Guy series. Although i'm enjoying it, i still feel lifeless. Somehow, i can't wait for class to start again. Then i don't have to be at home every day, nothing to do. College keeps me occupied with homework and college mates keep me occupied with outing.

Been staying at home for almost a month now, almost ! And semester break is coming to an end. Bitter-sweet moment. Classes start end of this month and i have study for 6 subjects this semester as i have to resit another paper that i've failed during semester one. Regret why didn't i focus more. Le Sigh.

Anyway, i'm still glad i manage to make it to year two. Which means i'm a senior when classes start again, although it's no big deal.

Going back to doing Nothing for now. Signing off.

Cheers (:

That feel.

The rank, Friend, comes with a huge responsibility to others. Friends are second most important thing to a person after family members and relatives. When you're a friend to somebody, you're expected to be their tissue when they weep, shoulder when they need to lean on, eyes when they're blind and hugs when they're alone and most importantly, one of the person who will be there for them whenever they're in good or bad times.

But, it's hard to find an actual friend these days. It's a sad world right now that you can't even identify which is and which is not your friend, a friend or a foe. People these days take their friends for advantage, which i felt these kind of people should burn in Hell for eternity. Anyway, who am i to judge ? I'm not God.

Just because of the existence of these foes or fake friends, that doesn't mean real friends do not exist any more. That doesn't mean we should treat others how those fake friends treated you. If you know the pain of being alone, don't let others be alone. You being there for a friend means a lot to them, at least they know there is some one who cared for them besides their parents'.

Just imagine, you have a friend that is always there for you. How would you feel ? How you feel is how others feel too when you're there for them through thick and thin. It's a fair world. Treat others how you want others to treat you (:

Cheers (:  

The Unforgettable You.

Letting go is much harder than i thought. I thought i've let go of you, i thought i've forgotten you, i thought i'm over you. I thought letting go is as easy as ABC and counting 123. But no, it's harder than doing an add maths equation, much much harder. Guess i was lying to myself when i told myself that i was over you, that i successfully let you go.

Today, all my memories with you came back. Can't stop thinking about you, can't stop thinking what we had and what we had was gold. The times when we date, when we hold hands, when we hugged, when i hugged you from behind just the way you liked it, when kissed and most joyful of all is when the time we tell each other " I love you ". I miss everything about you, i miss everything about us and i especially miss when you tell me those three words. I miss you, i miss us, i really do.

I still remember the times when we're in secondary school until you head up to college and all the times and moments between it. I remembered everything like it happened yesterday which brings me down cause it also reminds me that those time had come to an end. A permanent end, full stop. Yes, we had our rough times too but it seems that we got through it just fine, usually. But until the time you told me you're going to Russia, i really didn't know what to do. What can i do, what should i do. I can do nothing but just wished you the best in everything. And i guess you too thought that we won't work out too, so decided to broke up.

The sad moment when i saw that text, i was pretty stunned. I did expect that to happen, just didn't expect it will happen so fast. With that text, our relationship came to a sad end. I regretted i didn't try to save our relationship that time but then again, i guess you made that decision for a reason. Even though i love you, but i too think we can't work out for long anyway. But i do love you, with all my Heart.

I really wish something will help me to forget about you, cause every time i think about you, it comes together with those bitter-sweet moments. If i ever get the chance to turn back time, i'll turn back time to when before we met each other. So, i can make you fall in love with me again. So, that i can make us fall in love with each other again and so that i can grab you tightly this time, not letting go.

It's not about who you have right now,

It's about how much you appreciate a person,

You have right now.

It takes more than just saying " I love you ",

to keep a relationship going.

Best buds ....

Friends forever, best buds forever. This we used to say, used to say to each other. Used to. You're the one who listen to my problems, you're the one who i spent most time with, you're the one that i would back up, you're the one that i would support no matter in what situations, you're the one that i love and you're my brother from another mother. I could not ask for another better friend since i met you, since i know you. My days were less dull every time we hang out, i don't feel alone when i have a good friend like you by my side. People call us gays as we always do crazy stuff together in any time of the day.

But everything changed when you started dating. Yes, its your first girlfriend and yes, i know she's dear to you and i really do feel happy for you getting into a relationship. Still, i don't get it why you have to forget about your friends around you once you got her. I know your girlfriend quite well, as she was my ex and she's not that kind that will stop you from mixing with your pals. If i can make time for you, even when i'm in a relationship, i don't get it why you can't. I can't get over losing you cause you're one of my dear brother from another mother.

I thought you were different, i thought you weren't one of those guys that forget friends when you got chicks. I really do thought you were different. I guess, my perception towards you were wrong. I'm losing you, losing a good friend, losing a dear friend. I tried to pull you back, remind you of our friendship but i guess, you forgot the moment. Love blinded you. Sometimes when i see videos of us doing crazy stuff, i asked myself was i dreaming all the fun times we had ? Did the fun times ever happened ? Were you ever my friend ? My brother ? My good friend ? My best bud ? Were you any of this of mine ?

I guess people do change, i do believe in this fact. Just never thought it would happen so fast. Mainly, i never thought you will change so rapidly. I wonder what changed you ? St John changed you ? Or you have a grudge towards me ? I can't feel the brotherly love between us any more, not even a connection. Maybe St John provide better friends for you, maybe i'm history or did i ever came into your life ? Perhaps i'm just a passer-by to you. The way you changed hurts me even worse compared to a break up in a relationship. You're one of the only best bud i ever had, and a girl changed you, a different environment changed you, different demographic changed you.

I know now that we're far away, we communicate less and we are both busy with our own lives. But, i know we can find a free time to catch up sometimes. Just that it depends you want to make the effort to work out our friendship or not.

Le sigh, maybe there's really nothing that will last forever. Even a friendship. Just one person can change another person. Today when i saw you, i hesitated to greet you. I'm afraid when i greet you, you won't even remember you. In the end, i didn't greet you at all. If you can call another friend that even i know him out, i can't think of a reason why didn't you asked me. Maybe you've really forgotten me, maybe i am just a passer-by to you.

You were once a friend i appreciate the most, i trust the most and most dear to me. Were, once to me.

I had a pen,

The pen was blue,

I had a best friend,

And the friend was you.

Fujitsu !

Why Fujitsu ? Let me tell you a few reasons why you should choose Fujitsu. Actually, not a few, just five. These five reasons explains perfectly why you should choose Fujitsu.

Lets begin with its spill resistant keyboard which so far only Fujitsu provide this feature. Its spill resistant, not water resistant. It's still better than other brands who provide none. If you accidentally spill water into a Fujitsu laptop, there is this metal chasis within it to prevent the water from directly flow into the motherboard. Which brings me to the second reason, a metal chasis in a Fujitsu laptop. This metal chasis might be thick, but it provides better protection if laptop is accidentally dropped or hit by something hard. Third reason is the ventilation system in a Fujitsu laptop. Fujitsu laptop lets you to do own dust removal which saves motherboard cleaning service charges. Moving on to the next reason which is the quality of the major components in a Fujitsu laptop. Although assembled in China,the major components, for example, the cell is made in Japan. You can see this on the battery itself. Finally and the most important reason is the motherboard is fully Fujitsu made.

What's this crap ? Its product information i have to explain to customers for 3 days. I'll be working for PC Fair for Fujitsu company. Damn i need the money. Really really broke lately, can't survive with the current money i have right now. Hope i can get good sales ! And hope nothing goes wrong, no awkward moments tomorrow when i'm working. Do come visit ! I'll be at the Fujitsu booth. Heh.

Cheers (:

Movies !

Today is the weekend end and i spend it watching movies with a friend. I never regret watching the two movies today. Both are awesome, worth my money ! First movie was Wrath of The Titans.

If you did watch Clash of The Titans, then you must watch this too ! Action packed, fantasy action. Got my full attention throughout the whole movie. Three Gods, Zeus, Poseidon and Hades, come to an end. Zeus and Poseidon died and Hades lose all his God powers. Cronus, father or the three God was almost freed from Walls of Tartatus but was stopped by the three God's weapon combined. 

Dance moves is this movie is the awesome beyond awesome. It's like another version of Step Up. Step Up is the fusion of street and ballet and Street Dance is the fusion of Latin and street. Worth watching for the second time ! 

Semester 3 break Outing !

Sun almost set at this time. It should have been a beautiful view, but blocked by the net. We went to A Famosa Resort for a night and stayed in a villa. It was 2 great, fun days. Paranormal activity and fun at the same time. We lived in one scary villa, just the very particular master bedroom and the toilet beside it. Just thinking back about it gave me goosebumps. It was a great experience anyway, paranormal experience. Thank God nothing happened to any of us and we didn't see IT.

The first day we went for water park. Had tonnes of fun in the water, laughed a lot. Then went out for dinner and back to villa. Many things happen that night. We played game and chit chat most of the time. Then that's when all the paranormal activity starts. Only a few of us felt it cause many went to bed early. Uhhh, scary. Then next day we went Malacca for food hunting. Ate a lot of good food ! Never actually been to Malacca just to eat their food there. Baba Nyonya food, satay celup and durian cendol ! Good food, must not miss when you're visiting Malacca.

Despite all the scary moments, overall, we had fun ! Unforgettable moments and laughter (:

Hard.

Unfortunately, there's no one i've met so far who will help me through my hard times and laugh with me after the had times pass. No one at all. Yes, i have good friends, the very best and all. But there's none actually are with me through my hard times or help me through it. My friends and i, only have fun together then disappears when i'm sad or going through a hard time.

Going through a hard time alone is a very sad thing to do. Being alone is sad enough, but going through a hard time alone, it defines sad. I might look happy and cheerful everyday but that doesn't mean i'm problem free. Many problems i don't share because i can't find the right person to share to.

I'm not asking for much, just somebody that understands me without me speaking out. A person that i can speak to, i can communicate with. Sometimes, i just think my life is pathetic. I can't even find a proper friend who i can speak my problems to.

Feels good.

It feels good to put a smile on a friend's face (: This friend of mine have many problems. It's because of her way of communication with others. People find her too friendly, over friendly. Yes, she have lots of friends but none of them actually cared about her. Till she came to college, there's one friend who cared dearly for her. Unfortunately, her good friend is seeing a guy lately and my this friend got a little jealous. Since her friend met the guy, she has been spending lots of her time with him. My friend has been jealous, heart broken somehow, i don't know why.

But i as a guy, can't read her mind and feelings and so the best i can do is just try my best to put a smile on her face. It sucks seeing a friend being down for so long, it makes the environment around emotional too.

Minutes ago, i manage to put a smile on her face and i feel good about it. Hope she can get over her current emotional problems and keep that smile on her face.

Cute.

There's one pair of couple-to-be in my class. They're just so cute. They call each other brothers or good friends or best friends, but, i don't know about others, i can see that deep down they actually love each other whether they want to admit it or not.

This is because, whenever i see how the guy treats the girl, i see myself last time when i'm in love. He would be with her most of the time, care more about her than any one else, go out on secret dates. The guy can tell me there's nothing between him and the girl or deny that he loves the girl, but it's just to obvious for me. I really do see myself when i love a girl. Brings back my memories from secondary school. I'm happy for them, they both do match and look rather cute together.

But although they both love each other, something is stopping them from being together. Maybe its their past relationship experience, which make Love an untrustable subject. They're just afraid to get hurt again, so they just want to remain how things are right now. Afraid things will mess up which will ruin their relationship, even as friends. Afraid of objections from friends and family. Since i went to college, i do more thinking. Now i realize that there are many things to consider before starting a relationship. Understanding, communication and toleration are three out of many important criteria in a relationship. So, perhaps what they're doing right now might be the right thing. Consider things that must be considered and understand each other more before starting a relationship.

Anyway, i do wish them both the best ! Whether they do love each other or not, just hope that they will achieve what kind of relationship they wanted.

Understanding,

Communication,

Toleration.

There things our once upon a relationship,

lacked of.